becauseilu - rock paper scissors season

I've Moooooved~

2010-02-20T12:33:00.003+08:00

Relink please :3

overstep

2010-01-27T17:52:00.003+08:00

or maybe not.

i want you love, LUV LUV LUV

2010-01-25T14:16:00.004+08:00

Wahaha, I'm tried to stick the fake eyelashes on my eyes just now

step one:
buy the fake lashes of course lols :P

sakai face with messy hair, well you know, i'm lazy..

step two:
open the box, and you'll found a small glue inside, and lashes.

Go and find a small stick around your room, well i only can find a hair clip in my messy room, so uhm, next step.

step three:
use a needle and make a hole on the mouth of the small glue, press it lightly, and you will see a milk-like-liquid come out

step four:
place the glue on the "plate" it gives you, and then take out the lashes CAREFULLY.
use the stick to take the glue, and then apply to the fake lashes.

okay here comes the difficult one, after you apply some glue on the fake lash, immediately take a small mirror, with your eyes looking down, and carefully place the fake lash near yours, avoid to blink your eyes before the glue dry, and then adjust the lash according to your eye shape (before the glue dry up) so you need be fast, erm not that fast actually, the glue will get dry in 60sec like that i think :O ok, to make sure the lash fully stick on your eyelid, lightly push the lash upward and inward (eyes looking down at the mirror) and then you're done :)

Here's mine:

Urgh, pimple >:C *let's photoshop*

Well, my desktop is in the hospital, and my photoshop cs4 gone D: so i use photoscape T_T

Okay, that's all for today. I'm gonna try on the different types of fake eyelashes <3

fake a smile

2010-01-19T01:17:00.003+08:00

Finally~ yeah really like FINALLY~ I step out of my room, and then my house door, get in the car and go shopping, with my mom. The advantage is, well you know, parents = credit card which is TOTALLY free of charges; disadvantage is, well you know also, mothers..
I wonder what's wrong with her today, totally so different then usual. Well, maybe she just won some money in 4D/Toto, beside this, i don't have another explanations. It's a good thing anyway.

I think i should get an award, because..

OMFG, I CAN FIX IN S SIZE TOP WEAR!

Eh wait, is that mean my breast is getting smaller also? LMAO~ -0- But I still have the little tummy wtf. Oh well. I like the jacket so much, i donno why. And i think it more suit if i dyed hair. Another one is just a simply long t-shirt, and i think it's so forking expensive, it cost ~~my mom~~ me RM60.90 if i'm not wrong, only for that D: The price of the jacket is quite normal, yeah. REALLY.
Well, since Eunice said that Taylor only allow T-shirts, long jeans and sneaker, so next item, skinny leg jeans and more shirts lols~ By the way, my mom will clam those money from my bank FML.
I need heels also, contact lens, another pair of converse (maybe get one at KL that time) and i think THIS is so cute and nice. Did I tell you that i'm in love with pink? Aww, really hope i can have that.

I need to change a habit - blogging at midnight. Wth, i didn't realize that it's 2.30am wtf. So i guess i'll continue this post at tomorrow. Nights, lols.

cause everything change

2010-01-17T23:59:00.005+08:00

Well, people may change right? you shouldn't because of someone and stop living your life. This is not a fairytale, not everyone will be like snow white or sleeping beauty, able to live a happy life after they met their princes. I'm not the lucky one i know, and I'm getting tired to try to be a princess, waiting for the gays to give me life. I've think alot, since that day I read my old stupid diaries. Everything is appear suddenly in my mind last night, just like watching a movie, funny but miserable. Those days I realize I tears for many things. Mostly is about sad one, but now i feel so funny, and friendship, most of them are crap, i hardly trust a human being now, even he/she ever been my best friend before, and i hate that people like, 100% trust me, 'cause i scared that one day, something will just hurt both of us badly. I rather to be the bad guy :) 'cause I'm getting tired to be good.

I'm tired to explain

i'm tired to tear

I'm tired to guess

I'm tired to dream

and I'm tired of myself.

I'm growing..i'm changing..i'm breathing..

when ky is not that ky anymore.

One in the million

2010-01-16T17:33:00.009+08:00

Well, last night I hardly get in sleep, after read the diaries I wrote so many years ago. The heartache still here, right somewhere deep inside my heart, in the memories that labeled "Do not touch". With tears, I feel so stupid when I saw one sentence, 为何丑小鸭变不成天鹅? I laugh, because now I know that 不是一定要成为天鹅, 才能得到快乐. Feel so childish when I read that stupid diary, and feel so sad. I still remember this song, which make me cry a lot before.

I almost forgot that feeling when I sang this song at midnight, until i fall asleep. Oh well.

By the way, streamyx REALLY sucks lately, i just got back my internet connection after 23hours and 34mins. Screw it wtf, can't do anything else but complain. Msia Boleh? Yeah ker? Fck lah. Right roman? C'mon bark two times for agree this.

Everything I'm not

2010-01-13T22:14:00.008+08:00

Howdy~ Feel lazy to blog, again lately. Well, sorry about that :x Not in mood to do anything but just lay on the bed whole day, waiting someone come to slap me. Oh well.

In this boring day, i shall do some boring stuffs, with my dog

Sneaked into the kitchen, he's in his paradise(lol)
I wonder what is he dreaming about, so i decided to wake him up and ask him.

He just yawning and ask me to fck off :x (still remember the
lmao video my gang made last year? =3)

He has no choice, so he awake and ~~begging me to let him sleep~~ play with me, by licking my toes. sweet~

But a minute later,

Wanna know what's make him become so cute suddenly?

It's because i was eating something. He's begging me to spare him some.
But i didn't

so he bite my finger, to revenge, wake him up and didn't spare him food.(lol)

I need a haircut and dye them wtf, before i go KL D: and seem that I need some vitamin D, too pale wtf -0- By the way, i'm waiting for my

pink SE W705 x3
Donno why now I so in love with pink colour x3 so chio man wtf.
Oh yeah, one more thing

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR ELMIRA <3

love you always <3 (miss my long hair T_T)

one day he will know that

2010-01-12T14:25:00.005+08:00

Finally!~~! I'm done with my layout, my chatbox and the typing title bar. But I still feel that something is missing ._. Oh well.
Meh, i got to go at 3 like that i think, and have piano lesson at 4:30. Don't ask me where will i go in this 1hour30mins, i won't go anywhere but just in the car. Waiting for my mom get her things done, in this darn 1hour-and-30mins. Well, this's not the big deal, the problem is, I hard to stay in a space with her, it'll drive me crazy and make me kill someone. It's hard to have a proper conversation with her. I TRIED, but fail. Well, wish me won't forget to bring my earphone later. ~~plus she bitch-ing ALOT lately.~~ I just wish that 22nd of march is tomorrow.

By the way, I really wish that my SPM result will get more than 5 credit, PLEASE T_T 'cause last last night i dreamed about I get all D and F in my result wtf. If i really got chance go in taylor study, i promise i will finish that 4 years hardcore course, and get that stupid certificate, and then use that to shut her mouth up. FY.

p/s: if can, I really hope that she won't follow me to go KL wth. LIKE SHE KNOWS EVERYTHING. _|_

getting older

2010-01-10T15:00:00.000+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday to Nicole!
Start from now, I'm legal to do anything =3 but hell yeah, I also have to responsibility all the things I have done. Well, growing up which mean getting older. Another word, become mature, isit good or bad? :x Maybe yes or maybe nah. Well, thing i care is: Though I'm 18 now, I still don't have my driving license @#$@#$

Well the word behind the cake is Roman, this is roman cheese cake, which =

ROMAN <3 by the way, he look so big size in here. Actually he is just this

tiny and thin ._. Donno why but still we can see that

he is happy =3

p/s: thanks for the birthday wishes in facebook :)

Say

2010-01-01T00:02:00.001+08:00

HOORAY! HAPPY NEW 2010 YEAR TO ALL OF YOU GUYS <3

认真

2009-12-29T13:12:00.002+08:00

真的是眼淚嗎　這算不算回答
你問我為何那麼聽話　為了什麼寧願沒有想法

就坦白承認吧　是自己太傻
竟然為你梳直我的長髮　不接任何電話　天真的準時回家

別讓我在街頭　漫無目的遊走　以為你會找尋我
別讓我的寂寞　侵蝕無味的酒　融化悲傷的淚　在別的男人胸口

愛人或者被愛　也許都嫌不夠　至少我還珍惜過
幸福的感覺　它離我好遠好遠　認真愛過我已無所求

I just need to

2009-12-28T22:31:00.004+08:00

take a break,

alone.

she better hold him tight

2009-12-24T10:39:00.003+08:00

It's Christmas Eve! What you gonna do at this day? Lols, don't ask me why now so free didn't maple meh? *F3 face* Streamyx sucks what can I do? Blogging loh :x I'm busy finding the new blogskin, feel so sien about the old one.

Christmas leh, 2009 will become past soon, and I gonna say goodbye to my seventeen life and step into eighteen. I'm gonna buy something for myself. ~~stop me to buy maple @cash okay -0-~~ anyway, I'm so bored now, and lazy to type again. So,

MERRY CHRISTMAS

and enjoy your night <3

when i kiss you

2009-12-19T16:22:00.003+08:00

Finally, I feel clean now. Hell yeah I'M BACK FROM CAMP! Omfg, one word -> Tired. I can feel that all my bones and muscles are like separated. Very painful you know, especially for me this old woman, I can't sleep well at camp first night, 'cause over exercise. Gosh and that time all the teachers said that the next day activity will be more harder than first day one. I'm like, I WANT GO HOME! and keep blaming Eunice why she force me come here lols~ But in camp I found back many primary old friends and I'm so happy :) Besides, I learn many knowledge from them. and Yawn~ tired =_= bye I go get some sleep first.

forgive me i'm trying find

2009-12-16T20:43:00.003+08:00

Yosh~ Now I'm using Eunice ~~nene~~'s brand new laptop blogging, and I keep press wrong button HAHA. Lame okay i know. Anyway, I'LL GONE FOR 3 DAYS like that, for that lu zhou camp, and I'll stay at her house tonight. Teehee, who wanna see her pretty and sexy naked body? HAR HAR HAR! Nah, just kidding, she won't let me see one :C only available for double bear :O

I'm just bored, her laptop can't play maple *sob* I miss my character and Roman too <3 So sad, but excited too x3 Honestly this is my, erm 1st camp in my life lawls ._. and i miss maple LOLS~

Yeah, christmas coming soon, who wanna go out please show me your ass!! Let's get drunk at christmas eve :3 I just so like the taste of alcohol. <3 Neh~ In hyper mood now, and so shy haha, 'cause wanna sleep with big nene tonight. Awwww *blush* Wtf i sounds so wrong. And her room is like, so cold -0- I'm bored, fucking bored, donno what to do but just wait. :C I hate waiting.

Okay, this is just a random post. See you guys after 3 days :) miss me kay? <3 cya

everyday I love you..

2009-12-16T02:03:00.005+08:00

Greeting, it has been ages i didn't update my blog, well sorry. ~~addicted to maple, like AGAIN~?~~ Well, haha okay i admit that, I no life T_T lols~ What? I just want do something I like before I leave, and maple is one of them hahas :P Well, maybe not, me planning to say bye bye to maple forever, after i reach 4th job lmao, and please stop me to buy @cash D: it such a waste for spending money in game things. But last time bah haha. Okay, no @cash but w705!!! Woot last time I saw a pink colour w705 at parkson, RM815, so chio wtf T_T I wish i can book that phone down first D: Man, I need job. *finding wtf* and I need dress + heels + colour contact lens + my mini laptop bag. I'm so lack of $$$$$$$$ darn! Oh well. Tomorrow gonna shop for camp things with my gang, my purse is like only left 100++ and my evil big sister keep asking me if i got go taiwan or not. I want to but, my w705 baby D: I need to get it before march. ~~and please remind me to apply taylor wtf~~ I keep forget this important thingy! ARGH! too much maple ._. Wish me that I really can get in taylor for further study.

2:36am: I still can't sleep. For some weird reasons and my messy mind. I just can't stop them. I keep repeating this song, using earphone, blocking the other but just boyzone's ~~sexy~~ voice. Well, it's my brother wedding theme song. and I love it. Talk about wedding, oh shit ._. I gained weight and need to lost it in 2 week time! possible or not ._. Last time try some pretty dress but end up with disappointment. I nearly burst the dresses FML. not the top but bottom. T_T I have big fat ass like my brother has + elephant legs D: OMFG! I need to keep fit man wtf!

It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you

2.44am: I still awake. Thinking of something I shouldn't to think. But I can't stop think of it. Still the same song in my ear and mind. and I feel hungry now. But my milk was finished by roman. He likes milk like I do <3 *missing part, i forgot what i write, sorry*

everyday i love you

3.01am: Wondering what's roman doing now, sleeping or missing me too haha. I'm hungry but don't really want to eat something. I feel empty, the same melody, suddenly makes me wanna cry. I'm thinking of him again. There's so many him appear lately and I'm gonna wash them off out of my mind. I don't believe in love honestly. I only trust my own feeling. I just know that I love, but donno that if I loved. No heartache but hungry, VERY.

And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul

3.12am: Loved. It's doesn't matter to me now. Christmas is coming soon, and I really hope that this time I won't spend it alone myself. I miss singapore christmas night. So pretty and awesome..I really wish that I won't be left. I pretty hate that kind of feeling. And I won't left roman too. Cute roman, thanks for loving me this kind of master. <3

3.32am: press wrong something and messy up the post. shit, fuck that acer, anyhow I'm feeling okay now. Butterflies have been killed, after thinking of roman. I should get some sleep now. Nights earthling, nights roman. Nights nicole <3

And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you

when we sing together

2009-12-06T12:19:00.002+08:00

SURPRISE~~ Ok later I'll upload to facebook and tag their name. Wanna who is who? Go find out x3 Okay slap me because tomorrow i have chemistry :3

I just can't escape this love

2009-12-02T22:55:00.006+08:00

Imma..still hate that I can't remove him from my memory. But yeah, 89 days more to go. I wanna leave here and he is the biggest reason for me to do so ; I don't go too far, because of the same reason too. Learning to let go? I'm learning it since I fell down that time, I'm a failure...

Yeah, I'm still waiting for the impossible thing.
I need someone to wake me up and give me a hand

But still
Who will in love with an empty body

You were here just yesterday

2009-11-30T17:14:00.003+08:00

Hmm..Let me think, how long ago did my ex-pet (lol) passes away? :/ not including that stupid fish (LOL) okay, i mean doggie. I remember I had a cute puppy at Primary 4/5 like that wtf, and my mom give it to her friend WTF. *sob sob* Wewe, I still remember you, do you remember me? Neh that girl always shares her apple with you. Haha. He can eat up a whole apple man O.O including the middle part one lmao. Anyway, my house has a new family member - Roman!

So fucking cute and friendly x3 isn't he? I said he is friendly because it likes to follow people. (is this good or bad lol?) I donno, i just know that he is cute! x3 (and he afraid of hairdryer LOL) Well, actually I'm thinking of other cuter names for it, like sushi LOL. Anyway, got other name for him? D: Or maybe I just use Roman/Romen? Oh well. By the way, my mom call it Koko -0- (the short form of Kopi) -0- She even suggest that just call it kopi -0- I'm like -0- Oh well, I guess I'll just call it roman <3 ROMAN~

and i lie awake and miss you

2009-11-28T22:52:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow and tomorrow is Biology, one word DEATH. Wish me have fun in the hell :| Oh well. Lazy to type more, so before to say goodnight, let me enjoy this song first, mad love <33

Vanilla Twilight - Owl City

Sweet dream :3

since I'm gone

2009-11-25T21:55:00.002+08:00

Well...

4 MORE SUBJECTS TO GO!

HAHAHAHAHA! I'm in holiday mood now wtf. SPM still have 4 more subject (me have chinese) and I can't wait to get my freedom VERY SOON. I can do what I want FINALLY! But first I have to get that stupid driving license, like it's SO LATE for me to take that, 'cause I'm a January baby WTF! and my mom now is like, wah, so many Form 5 students get their license liaw ah. _|_ Fuck you very much for screwed up my life wtf. I missed so many things I can said that. WTF! No wonder my life is so damn dull, because having a stubborn + bitchy + fucking non-comment-sense mother. What to do? I just hope that I can fucking get out from this home, this fucking house, this fucking family. *just ignore all the fucking words and shut up*

I'm weird cause I hate goodbyes

2009-11-19T18:11:00.002+08:00

3 papers down! 6 more days to go wtf. Well, today have English paper 1 and paper 2, and that damn history paper 2. Like usual, I donno how to do..anyway, I give up that subject already, so whatever. Coming up next is Maths paper 1 and paper 2, on Monday. Wish me good luck! my 5 credit man wtf!

I'm not here, not anymore

2009-11-13T18:37:00.005+08:00

Gosh, this afternoon is just so damned hot. I went back to school, for art club farewell party, 'cause nalie told me I was invited. ROFL~ ~~For sure I'll go if there's any food.~~ And I wanna thanks to art club members, my juniors, for giving me some special gift and cheer for all Form 5 seniors, but I don't think I deserved it 'cause I just joined art club this year and many times absent the meeting, and I'm sucks in drawing wtf..anyway, thanks to them again. ~~while they're calling my name, at the same I was like, busy playing with the camera and didn't realize someone was keep calling me -0-~~ THANK YOU! Feel like want to cry man *sob* Wrong timing to cry wtf -0- Should be nervous now 'cause next Wednesday is SPM. Com'on,

SHOUT OUT LOUD YOU'RE READY!
I'm not ready...

Just kidding, I'm ready, but no 10/10, just 3/10 like that wtf. My 5 credit! D: My taylor! D: My architecture D: Okay, on. Gambatte!

*pissed with stupid lagging line*

*and the suddenly-lagging-laptop*

*and flap on the keyboard*

*and totally forgot she's using laptop*

SHYT!, *see*
I forgot I'm using laptop now and flapped on it! OMG! OMFG! I'M SO FUCKING SORRY ABOUT IT! SORRY SORRY SORRY! F5 but fortunately didn't use very big force to flap, phew. Sorry ._. maybe gonna bring you to disk clean up..or ask bro clean your fan if he's back._.

Oh yeah, new item is added into my shopping list!! Click here to see the hot babe :O maybe you'll think she is not chio, but still, I like it :3 *copy xiaxue one* What? She's fabulous okay F3, and so like hers bling bling, making all her things become so chio so girlish :O and this is the one of the reason I'm in love with pink colour. :3 Maybe you don't know that I so hate pink colour before :x Yeah people is changing, and me too. Maybe become more childish, more stubborn, but I can feel that me become more mature than before HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA WTF. ~~and a "little" fat~~ shut up would you? ==

About phone, I'm giving up my blackberry T_T and choose Sony Ericsson W705. It dropping price now and maybe next year is a good chance to change a new phone before go KL. Blackberry, still in my shopping list, one day sure I'll get it *yeah right* SHUDUP!
Meh, I'm thinking of changing my blog skin again, feel so bored about the old one, wanna try out a different thing, no black and white, maybe. Hunting for the skin skin skin, where are~ you pretty skin <33

*sorry, she's drunk, donno why._.*

能遇见你，是我这辈子最幸福的事。

And tell you I don't love you

2009-11-11T17:26:00.004+08:00

and

KAWAII NEH! I wish i can own them :3

everything you don't

2009-11-11T12:51:00.006+08:00

Oh man, I'll keep doing some useless things at home. Everytime I say to myself, DO NOT TOUCH YOUR LAPTOP AND PC , but end up with play with them the whole day. Everytime I say to myself, CONCENTRATE ON YOUR REVISION PLEASE, but end up with fall asleep thw whole afternoon.

Yeah of course, yesterday whole day hands on keyboard..shame on me..turning my laptop desktop into mac-look theme

ermm, spend me whole afternoon to find a window xp theme :x my gosh, shame on me. But hoh, it look so nice :3 *buay tahan* like so real that I'm using mac now, but actually is kns acer -0-

Okay next is Mozilla Firefox theme, also spend me a night to find a nice theme for it :x

I so like the pink colour skins <3>now I work on the desktop icons nah, today I'm gonna take my calculator and sit at there do my add maths and maths workbook. How can I forgot my 5 credit + architecture + taylor's collage university. Damn, 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit 5 credit

and oh yeah, I'm so pissed with that stupid and useless keyboard protector, not pissed on that thing but the person who help me cut out to fit my keyboard size. I'm feel like use the words and throw in his face, IT'S TOTALLY NOT FIT WITH MY KEYBOARD OKAY. Waste my RM10 for that thing. bullshyt. Okay, study study.

为了爱情失了聪明
听你的话闭上眼睛
这个梦多美丽让它继续..

And I dream about you all the time

2009-11-08T18:55:00.003+08:00

Hahahaha! say it! say that I have talent in design! ROFL~ just ignore me :P No life again, eh shouldn't have say I no life! :O Today whole afternoon busy with my mathematics, like gonna insane D: so play a little mini game doesn't matter :P Okay, going down to have dinner. Seeya

But you're still on my lonely mind

2009-11-07T12:36:00.004+08:00

HA

HA

HA

HA

HA

I'M GRADUATED!

HURRAH! HURRAH~ But left 11 days more to SPM!! My 5 credit! My Taylor's collage! I'm COMING! By the way, I saw BLACKBERRY TODAY! WTF But It's not my dreamed baby, blackberry bold. And the hell, lately the weather is REALLY DAMN HOT! I sweated like a pig and keep eating at behind -0- Don't feel like wearing jeans and go out again wtf, can clearly see my big fat tummy, oh my gosh, just like a pregnant lady. Shame on me, I can't control myself to stop eating too much. T_T Anyway, got to prepare my thing for this afternoon group study at pustaka. ciao

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘

The 100th

2009-11-02T13:20:00.005+08:00

Another boring day at school again, fuck that teacher and old witch (you know). WE CAN'T HAVE STUDY LEAVE EH WTF! They just want us sitting in the class that's all, and listen them crapping. *sigh* ~~fuckyoumz.R~~

I make my decision, I will take architecture at Taylor's University Collage, and its entry requirement is minimum 5 credit in SPM result, and i have to study this for 6 years + 2 years working experience. O.O Total all up is 8 years. Never mind I know I have to face this one day, but the thing I mind is, can I handle it? + can I really score 5 credit in my SPM? "Money is not the worry" said my mom in the car, that time I felt like want to cry and say thank you to her for supporting me. 4 years to finish my course in Taylor's, and 2 years to take my master and then step into this cruel world, facing the different people outside. That's so fast, or maybe not. Urgh, don't worry about this first, let's worry about your result -0- 5 credit, maybe it's piece of cake for somebody, but it's quite hard for me, so~ planning what subjects I NEED to get credit or above:

(a)English for sure
(b)Mathematics (basic for architect)
(c)Bahasa Malaysia (basic to in local uni)
(d)Bahasa Cina (help me to get another credit)
(e)Moral? (shit subject ~~i used to cheat in this subject in exam~~ :x nothing)
(f)Chemistry?? (as backup although I never pass this subject)
(g)Add.Maths (working hard now)

only 50% that I can get 5 credit in SPM. URGH!

*singing back to the 80's*

Pray for me man, wtf. Okay, back to my study, good luck for all SPM calon.

goodbye and i still hate ~~love~~ you

That fragile Capricorn unraveled words like moths upon old scarves

2009-10-30T06:57:00.002+08:00

Morning people, I'm not going to school today, rather stay at home and study, better than sleeping and staying blankly at school. Of course, ~~fucking~~ school was calling my mom again, wtf. What's a big deal about I'm not going to school huh? That fucking principal didn't go to school and why don't you go and call her fucking parent also? + it's not your fucking business.

you are more familiar than breathing

2009-10-28T17:39:00.002+08:00

Whenever i look at the sky,
only when i look at the sky..

all 'bout you

2009-10-26T20:34:00.004+08:00

Yawn, hello people, it's my bed time now. Before sleep, gonna post something on my blog today. :)
Today went out with Eunice and Natalie, wearing our class T-shirt. ~~so chio man wtf~~ We go limteh, shopping and went parkson buy something. *sleepy* Before we got in Eunice's car, we saw this

chairs at the parking lot, it's like SO MANY and causes some cars need to find a further parking place to park their car. After Eunice reverse her car, I saw a restaurant worker,

standing beside the road and busy putting the chair on the empty parking space before other cars can park.

Well, the thing I want to tell is, I pointed my middle finger to her

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I love you, say it,
love is the beautiful one

love is the beautiful one

2009-10-25T13:25:00.003+08:00

Afternoon guys, nothing to do so..

just wanna say that...

i love you all <3

all we need is love, true love

2009-10-24T16:37:00.005+08:00

The korean drama I love the most T__T

~~and he is so damn hot <3~~

I thought I could fly

2009-10-24T14:05:00.005+08:00

Reminds me to renew my popular book store member card O.O I wanna buy some books to read. And I like to shop in bookstore more than in fashion store, donno why, I just like been surrounded by books, it feels so good =D
~~I'm not a bookworm~~

That "Before I Die" looks good to read, and the title is so damn, gonna check it out if I'm free.

the first step after you've gone

2009-10-23T22:01:00.007+08:00

Urgh! stupid thing -0-

20.11.2009 I'm waiting for you, New Moon <3

I feel so depressed lately, since the day I knew I only left 25 days to study, everyone seem like ready to face SPM but me, only me, still donno what should do. I feel panic, helpless, horror and a bit sorrow. Mixed feeling huh, screw it. Gonna read some chemistry before sleep, and tomorrow morning I need to go Add.Maths. extra class, FML. Nights people.

and I’m tired of waiting

2009-10-23T13:00:00.006+08:00

Hehe, this is our class T-shirt. Chio right? Actually yesterday eexin wore it to tuition and i think it's ~~funny~~ :x Not the design's problem but the shirt, xin wore it and look like this

HOLY~

No lah, I just kidding. Maybe is because she's too small size and the shirt too big size. Oh well,

OUR CLASS T-SHIRT IS SO CHIO!

Thanks to EUNICE and NATALIE!

Tweet : I keep listening to DOWN - JASON WALKER

I don’t know where I’m at
I’m standing at the back
And I’m tired of waiting
Waiting here in line, hoping that I’ll find what I’ve been chasing.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m going to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

Not ready to let go
Cause then I’d never know
That I could be missing
I’m missing way too much
So when do I give up what I’ve been wishing for

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m going to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.
Oh I’m going down, down, down
Can’t find another way around
And I don’t want to hear the sound, of losing of what I never found.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m going to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
I never know why it’s coming down, down, down.
I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m going to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Oh it’s coming down, down, down.

There's no more key..

teach me how

2009-10-22T22:53:00.002+08:00

Crazy, even my big sister is crazy about farmville, she wants me to send her thing EVERYDAY. Hey hey hey, your little evil sister is going have SPM soon don't forget -0- Trying my best to get at least 4A-, the ~~mafan~~ government is gonna change the grade in the SPM result start from 2009, something like:

A1 = A+
A2 = A-
B3 = B+
B4 = B-

I donno lah, just only sure that there will a new grade, A+ appear in this year SPM result. Stupid =*= Okay, get back into my chemistry, seeya.

ps: Click here to watch the video. Donno what's wrong, I can't post the video at here.

I feel so

2009-10-21T17:04:00.004+08:00

down today...:'C

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘

我爱他

2009-10-20T21:31:00.005+08:00

他的情况留在
某一节车厢
地下铁里的风
比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊
对他唯一遗憾
是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪
都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好
我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来
我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐
如果还有遗憾
又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪
我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱
我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来
我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐
如果还有遗憾
是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪
都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

为什么只有我被排挤在爱情门口之外，难道不懂怎样爱一个人是我的错吗？

no way to turn back again

2009-10-19T17:27:00.004+08:00

This should be the headline of the newspaper tomorrow, it's so scary man O.O

Yay, one of my favorite festival event is coming soon. Even my pet ~~fake one wtf~~, sushi is preparing some spooky stuff to welcome the event! Aww, how adorable she is.

Sushi : hell, I'm so damn poor now! Give me some candies! >:O
Yup, it's my day ~~wtf~~, Happy Halloween to all of you. I shall go and hunt you all, muahahahahaahahahah~ It's not my fault that I'm too pale, you shall ask my mom what did she eat when having little me in her ~~smelly~~ tummy. Too much rabbit meat? Hell yeah I still remember I saw a picture that my brothers and sister having a cute rabbit in each of their hands ~~the rabbits are so tiny and so cute!~~, then I ask my mom where's the rabbits now, my mom said, become shit already and donno where is it now. I'm like, how cruel that ~~bitch~~ woman is. So wanna have a pale baby? Find another way and please don't eat rabbits wtf. I'm so sick of China people now after watching them how to cook and eat the snake, dog and cat! Argh! Can't stand it. bye~

another way to go

2009-10-18T10:53:00.007+08:00

YAY! Finally I'm done with my Cbox emoticons and nuffnang ads, click on it please! But I still donno how to put the ads on the header. Argh, just let it be. Oh yeah, New song has been added to my playlist, recently I'm in love with Uncle Kracker's voice, especially SMILE. Feel so happy when I completed my blog skin and other stuff, my blog so chio though it's in black white gray colours.

Well, I'm going back to maple soon, I mean after SPM. Now downloading the stupid patch version 82, it's really stupid....All old mapler back to maple world, let's have Christmas party. xD

And, I want a new phone please >:O something like :
No blackberry :C

LG GD900 <3

or this?

SE T707

...........

I still wan blackberry wtf T___T

no, not anymore

2009-10-16T22:57:00.001+08:00

❥ E TO THE X 义欣, says:
oh well ;d
good looking guys are usually players HEHEHE.

nicole says:
but he gt gf
lol

❥ E TO THE X 义欣, says:
break liao bu shi

nicole says:
RELI? O.O

❥ E TO THE X 义欣, says:
i heard so

nicole says:
LOL
another ass hole

I just wanna believe in me

2009-10-16T21:12:00.004+08:00

Cheer for Columbian Form 5, congratulation we have finished our SPM Trial II examination. Now I'm waiting to graduate, waiting for that day I can scream, YEAH! FUCK YOU HELL YEAH, I'M GRADUATED! WTF! Well, don't blame me 'cause only these words can describe my feeling about graduation. After SPM, gonna find a nice collage/uni and start my new life at somewhere else. Oh yeah, 86 days more to my 18th birthday x3, kinda excited about it, and my CAR LICENSE TOO! Gonna get it AFTER SPM. And many many things more I want to do and want to dream. Yeah, this is life :>

Talk about car, well lately something BAD happened in this week. One is about....Nah, find me in MSN than I tell you. Second is about this morning, our class teacher was mad O.O First time saw that she so angry. Why? Nah, I'm not going to tell you 'cause lazy to explain. Give you a clue, didn't I say that it's about car? Try to guess :P

Oh, another thing. Between me and my mom is getting worse and worse, after she called xin's mother to warm her don't let xin drive anymore. When xin called and told me that, I WAS SUPER DUPER PISSED OFF. After hang up the phone, I just can control my temper and smash my phone onto the floor. Luckily my mom was out that time, if not my house gonna have another war world III, again. It's not xin's fault and I'm telling her THOUSAND of times I DIDN'T ESCAPE SCHOOL THAT DAY! And it's because of my FUCKING school called her again, maybe Eunice was right, WHY OTHER PEOPLE DIDN'T COME TO SCHOOL AND WTF YOU DIDN'T CALL THEIR PARENTS?! That's not fair! Yeah, I know last time it was our fault, we shouldn't escape school, but hell, YOU CAN'T JUST JUDGE US THAT WE WILL ALWAYS PONTENG SCHOOL, didn't see our face in class and terus go call our parents.
讲来讲去都是我们小孩子的错, 难道你们大人就没有错?
你们不是很会说, 做错了就要道歉, 可是你们叻, 有几个讲到做到?
你们认为自己是对的, 当我们想要解释时, 你们就认为我们在跟你们顶嘴; 当我们不想解释时, 你们就认为我们承认了.
Man, this is bullshit, wanna know why we just stand there and let you blame? 因为我们知道在你们的眼里, 说什么都是错的. I'm just talking the truth. My mom is a person like that, 死要面子. But she's the one making herself lost her face and shamed by people, not me sorry, and is not my business again. Hope that she don't ever think about to take care MY business again.

Sorry, it's too late.

Hello, Bye.

2009-10-11T20:41:00.003+08:00

My my, 38 days more to Saya Pasti Mati, before get going on my study, I think I have to clean up my blog first. Oh, and my room also.

~~I forgot what I want to blog~~ Well, nothing special at all lately, it's kinda bore, FML. ~~btw, the kissing picture of E.S and his gf came on my mind, it's so gross man, wtf~~ Well, today went out with eexin, for lunch, and biology tuition. The tuition extra classes for SPM are driving me insane! I just hope teacher don't so kindly try to improve my brain, 'cause I know if I don't change my lazy attitude, everything is just a waste. Sometimes I also feel like, wanna slap myself badly. Oh well..continue on my study, tomorrow biology and maths, what can I say? Tunggu Mati. hope that I won't forget to set my alarm.

just one word, SUAY!

2009-10-01T17:55:00.004+08:00

Walao, really really suay. Today the ~~fucking~~ school telephoned my mom about yesterday I absent. Hell yeah my mom's at home and she picked up the phone...fucking suay~ and of course I kena marah by her, but just a while only, phew :/ weird. Can't believe that school has my home phone number, fuck when I give them the real number? I forgot, the hell~ and I wondering at the Hari Pelanggan(?) will they call my mom? *jaw drops* SHIT! Well I guess I really have to unplug the phone wire the whole day, to keep myself safe. Robinett is such a *erasure*

Wow, 1st of October already, I mean, SHIT! IT'S 1ST OF OCTOBER ALREADY! Well, just need + oil + oil, wish everyone good luck in trial exam 2. :)

Before going, intro a song to you :D

Have a nice day~ ciao

Freaking Wednesday :)

2009-09-30T20:57:00.008+08:00

LOL, I just can't stop laughing when watching this stupid video.

Created:
Eunice(camerawoman)
Eexin(starting)
Nicole(ending).

Background "music":
Ah Tong
Adam
Alex

Well, we all p school today and stay at ahTong's until afternoon. And there's an accident happen today, which freaked us all out today, about Alex.....but I need to study so yeah. :)

way to apologise

2009-09-29T21:59:00.002+08:00

Gib me this and I won't cry ;3 my eyes hurt by the way..

for me, it's a part of my soul

2009-09-29T18:33:00.003+08:00

So fucking pissed about my mom, and I HATE PEOPLE TO TOUCH MY THINGS WITHOUT MY PERMISSION! Now okay, she damaged the thing which is so IMPORTANT to me wtf! i feel like yell at her "FUCKING CB BITCH, DO NOT EVER COME IN MY ROOM AGAIN!!" and throw a shit in her face.

This thing, flip flap, one of my "toy", but wtf for me that's not only a toy, it's a..wtf I don't want to explain BUT IT'S FUCKING IMPORTANT TO ME! DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT BITCH!? I just can't stop crying when realize the leaf is half broken and can't move anymore, stupid stupid stupid! WHY SHE SO FUCKING LIKE TO TOUCH MY THING? damnit, it really won't move anymore. Although it just a toy, but it is so important..really is so important. now hell it's broken..

another day

2009-09-28T21:44:00.004+08:00

School day and next week is another trial exam, so start from today I'm gonna go to bed at 12am and wake up at 5am the next morning. T_______T Meh, never mind I still can take a nap after come back from school ~~or during the school~~ Well, just only for 3 months only I told myself, just 3 months and you'll get your freedom, you can go anywhere you want, you can sleep anytime you want, you can play game you want. Well, I better finish this post and go study :x

Okay, new song to intro :D
Smile - Uncle Kracker
Just now heard this song on radio while eexin fetch me to Krokop 10, nice and I love it. Tehehe

Yup, I had moved into my new room. I love it though it's small, and I realize I have so many ~~useless~~ things, and my mom love to come in and out, and in and out again my room. A bit pissed 'cause she'll bring along some "little visitor" - mosquito, and she won't shut the door after she go out. Now the hell, I realize there's a FLY in my bedroom, like "ngiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~" everywhere in my room! and just now it flied into my cooling fan, and I was freak out when heard some strange noise came out from my laptop! actually it(noise) came from the fan..-0- and then saw a "black black thing" came out. wtf..scared me.

New desktop wallpaper and the new way to tweet <3 I wish I can change my window XP into Vista, but busy lately + need to ask my bro help (the difficult part) Okay, the end of the post for today, study study chemistry chemistry. cya

You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile <3

IDON'TLOVEYOU

2009-09-24T12:49:00.002+08:00

~~I don't like the music video so i just post the lyrics only~~ not kind of my music taste but I like the lyrics.

:')

2009-09-23T23:13:00.003+08:00

Well, hello guys, long time didn't update my blog, quiet busy lately :/ Yup, 56 days to SPM (Saya Pasti Mati) Hell, okay START STUDY NOW! Argh, why I don't have any nervous feeling huh! Really is "never die before". Need a person slap me everyday and remind me to study, maybe that's a good idea and force me to take my book and read. Okay okay, don't just talk and didn't take any action! ~~I'm this kind of person~~ *xin's putting L on her forehead and LOL* See, lately I even didn't see her (xin) online. Gosh! Crap! Shit! Study lah Nicole! Study lah Ky! Study lah LKY! STUDY STUDY STUDY! No pet society again! No Farmville again! No going out again! Fai Fai go study! You can do that after SPM! Don't waste your time anymore! *getting insane*

~~I'm getting tired of blogging about SPM again~~ MEH! Fork You damn damn much.

I'm losing follower in my twitter and that makes me abit sad :c Well, that's because lately I also lazy to tweet -0- screw me, such a useless person -0- and I changed my twitter background! love it <3 Anyway,

CLICK HERE to add me. I need follower D:

Isn't my desktop background lovely ~~*don't tell me no*~~ now I'm still lack of mouse :/ This afternoon went to parkson with "Eunice couple" and "Eexin couple". The hell I'm a SUPER light bulb -0- and both of them ditch me alone at there and go back home. *snort!* Oh well, I love self shopping. ~~After helping my mom to buy a bread~~ I saw a super cute mouse at Popular there! Well, Mirian can go popular and search that mouse. It's not cute actually but COOL! It's like, leather mouse or what? I forgot, you can check it out at Popular bookstore. 4 colours can choose, black, red, purple, and *forgot* I donno nice to use or not but hell yeah IT'S SO PRETTY! And the hell I only left RM10 that time and that mouse cost RM29.90. *pissed* Donno when then I can go out again, my mom starting to confine me wtf, and I'm so poor now! I even can't take out RM 20, and I still owe Eunice RM25 WTF!
Okay late night now, feel so sleepy wtf. Tomorrow start study, nicole, don't be so forking lazy again. Have a candy dream everyone, Good Night :)

Ps: Xin, don't dream 'bout I'm dead again. -0-

BECAUSEILOVEYOU

2009-09-23T21:30:00.002+08:00

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keep going on, don't look back

2009-09-15T20:31:00.004+08:00

Hmm..now the date is confirmed. 18th of November is my big day, not only me but all Form 5 students. The hell I only left 64 days = 1536 hours = 92160 minutes = 5529600 seconds to study. Guys, time to study -0- (I mean me myself) ~~Start from now~~ Start from after posting this post, I will work on my chemistry (the only hope) reference books and pass year questions. Really hope that I can get A1 in my chemistry :x
Okay, I just finish tidy up my room, well shouldn't call it MY room again 'cause I'm gonna move to another ~~smaller~~ room, and start from tomorrow, I'll live inside that room. Yup, my that big fat ~~ass~~ brother wanna take my room as his NEW wedding room! before I leave, I'm gonna poo on the floor, pee on the bed as a CONGRATS present for him. >:( By the way, that smaller room has balcony, hahaha! ~~but need to make sure the door is closed before my neighbor freak out when seeing me naked walking/dancing-like-a-weirdo here and there, I don't wanna see any jaw drops again. =_="~~ Anyway, I'm gonna miss mine-ed room :'C
Oh yeah I forgot one thing!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY ~~EVIL~~ SISTER!

haha, you should thank me for not shouting out your age >;D Happy Birthday to you anyway :) and also my second brother, wish him YI LU SUN FON 'cause tomorrow he gotta go UK for his further study, wish you good luck! And oh yeah, another thing too. Happy Birthday to Hii Tuang Tong/ah Tong/Tong Tong/DongDong/xin's dearest one and Happy Birthday to all September babies!
okay, study study study study x100 T_____________________T

'cause I'm not your princess and this ain't fairytale. Thanks for giving me a wonderful dream and I appreciated that. But dream is only a dream, I have to wake up and moving on. I just can say, I loved you, so so much. I loved you, I really did..

Coldest night ever

2009-09-14T00:30:00.002+08:00

Good night? or should I say Good midnight/ morning to everyone? now is really late I know but hell yeah, i can't sleep. It's cold, in my room, and I have super BIG blanket to cover all myself, with a pair of warm, pig head indoor slippers and my pet society, sushi. Oh yeah! and my stupid new haircut with me also. I don't feel like going to school tomorrow with this stupid look. -0- screw my mom, thanks for her to turn me into an idiot like this. Well, long story and I lazy to say again. ~~It's a shame :x~~

Well, today my internet line is down, again, whole day can't online and I nearly getting insane ~~'cause can't play pet society~~ 'cause too bored. Oh yeah, River Flows in You by ME is gonna upload soon :) now charging the stupid camera battery. Woo! hope i can play it well :x

LOL, using one hour to write this post. Oh well, I'm quiet busy now ~~Pet Society~~ So, good midnight :)

the day i ran away

2009-09-10T19:47:00.002+08:00

An unexpected thing had just came into my life and become a part of my life :) HURRAY! I finally get my laptop! xD Now I'm thinking of his name LOL! ~~but soon it will become a girl~~ Now I'm lacking of the cooling fan, little tiny mouse and I feel like want to buy it a "cloth" LOL. Anyway, I'm now trying to figure out how to start using its Bluetooth, I can't transfer the picture from my phone into it! and I forgot my phone bluetooth password! Chiam, stupid brain -0- oh well, ask my bro to help me up :x
Okay, anyone has any good software to intro? 'cause this lappy now is SO empty, and SO new, for me (I don't really like to use Window XP) and I can't view chinese webpages or softwares like PPstream :O even though I have google chinese translate(?) :C
Oh well, now finding some nice-using software and lazy to upload its picture, maybe next time if I can remember :x so cya~

2009-09-08T19:30:00.003+08:00

Argh~ That sucker just ruin my day! That's why I hate guys. Disgusting! Don't think you have that "thing" so is very proud of it. My cucumber is bigger than you. _|_

the only one

2009-09-06T20:03:00.006+08:00

Just now searching something with google and saw this~!

OMG~ Isn't it damn cute? x3 Well, its name is Old English Sheepdog. Remember last time I watch a Korean drama, Coffee Prince and they have this kind of dog in the drama, and it's SO~ cute! After that, xin told me there's same kind of dog near Joan's house and she said THAT DOG IS SO BITCH! LMAO~ By the way, me so like it. Well, the pictures up there are still a puppy, when it's bigger...

Maybe will become a crazy dog, oh well, it suit me. ~~'cause I'm a crazy person too.~~

Anyway, I wanna watch 败犬女王! :O

Okay, I have FINALLY done with my blogskin, and the music playlist. Last time my brother keep downloading movies and make my line lagging like hell. Okay, that's all for today, I wish I have a pet too :/ ciao~

Ps: Please click my damnit ads if it's appear, I need Vitamin M recently, damn poor now :D

2009-09-05T13:44:00.001+08:00

Crap...I hate slow internet :C

I'm lost

2009-09-04T12:25:00.003+08:00

~~Bullshit, I really hate that bs Mozilla Firefox. Like hell, always give me NOT RESPONDING. MF***er Damn f*** useless.~~ DAMMIT! SCREW YOU SUCKER!

A bit pissed now, 'cause that ~~shit~~ firefox like FUCKING USELESS LAGGING LIKE A DEAD SNAIL! Uploading today pictures to facebook using firefox and IT KEEP GIVE ME NOT RESPONDING after I tagged the picture! Like one person is tagged and the whole thing just JAM at there and WON'T move again. I'm like, HELL USELESS FIREFOX, just go eat shyt better.

Fucking useless, later uninstall the whole thing. Bullshit! Okay, talk about happy things. Today I FINALLY MAKE ME TO MARINA BAY! Well, although it's REALLY hot that time, but it's really pretty =)

Go my facebook to see the picture, lazy to upload again ;P
Inside got me, nalie, eexin, eunice and doublebear(gongon). Okay, I wanna gaming now! and HURRAY! The Trial Exam 1 FINALLY is finish! But shit, tomorrow still have school. -0- Cya~

let it go

2009-09-02T22:47:00.005+08:00

Suddenly, I feel so empty today. Suddenly, I can feel that, you're absent today, inside my heart..Suddenly, I don't miss you again.

So here I go~

2009-09-02T12:23:00.004+08:00

~~Morning~~ Afternoon guys, just came back from school and it's REALLY cold outside :x Non stop raining now and I can't stop shivering too. Okay, 2 more days to go :D I already know my result will be VERY not okay, 'cause I didn't really study hard :/ Oh well, I will do my best for the coming Trial 2 and SPM. *cross my heart* Haha, this reminds me the Disney movie -- UP, a sweet and sad movie, + funny.

Okay, lately I addicted to Pet Society, the facebook game.

Donno why I'm so crazy about it, maybe is because I want a pet >:( Last time I saw a SUPER cute white kitten in the pet shop there, she's keep meowing at me, and hands me her little soft claw. It's like, SO CUTE! Her eyes are baby blue in colour! and keep sending me, "please take me home, PLEASE~" But my mom don't let :/ She hates cat and dog, donno why -0- Okay, back to Pet Society x3 I just bought a new pinky princess bed to her x3 and I'm going to decorate her bedroom whole pink, but the hell I still don't have enough money to do so :x Gonna save the money, to buy this and that. Aw~ I love Pet Society~
Well, I changed my blog skin, but donno where should I put the nuffnang ads, and donno how to decorate my twitter with CCS. Damn hard man O.O Gonna learn it after the exam, i mean in my FREE time.
Okay, this's all for today. Gonna prepare things for tuition later. Bye

Tell me I'm worth it

2009-08-31T20:05:00.006+08:00

Tada~ I know it's wrong timing to blog now , I'm suppose to study for tomorrow exam. Oh well, just a few sentences and I won't take a long time:

1. Happy Birthday To Malaysia. <3
2. School reopen tomorrow, ~~shit~~
3. Exam tomorrow, ~~bullshit~~
4. The exam subject is Add maths, ~~Holy Shit!~~
5. Okay, the last one, UP! The cute/sweet/sad/funny movie. You should go watch too! x3

That's all, bye and night earth~ <3 See you guys tomorrow morning.

It's hard to wait around for something you know might never happen, but it's even harder to give up when you know it's everything you want.

would it be back soon?

2009-08-26T22:40:00.006+08:00

Okay, I wanna ask something. Did I tell you that last night I dream about me keep chasing a cute hamster in school? The funny part is, the teacher also trying to catch it. What a weird dream. O.O Oh well, this's not the point :x Okay, watch a video first . A nice song, called 我的快乐 by 锦绣二重唱 :)

Well, nice right? I also wanna try out this melody, although I hate long-short-long style. But still. Now the problem is, I need the music sheets, and I don't have printer to print it out. CRY~ Anyone here can help? :x

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and thanks to Ferdinand Thong introduce this song to me :x TQ By the way, river flows in you, shall I video out? :D and I also need "Kiss The Rain" by Yiruma music sheet :x Oh well, EUNICE! I KNOW YOU'RE KIND AND PRETTY RIGHT? :D

Everyone knows, but you.

你们要快乐要天长地久
你们没有错爱是自由
走出这扇门后至少我还有辽阔
你们要快乐要紧紧牵手
你们不幸福我会难过
成全最爱的人不是为了看着他寂寞

I have you in my mind

2009-08-25T09:36:00.007+08:00

Morning earth, another beautiful ~~annoyed~~ morning, that's why I wake up early today. Bad news, my mom came back from Kurcing yesterday, yeah she keep complain that I didn't do housework, but I REALLY got do okay, she said why I didn't put back all the plates and cups into the closet, and I'm like, I only do that before I get to sleep okay when you gone, but now you're back, aren't you? plus I haven't sleep yet, and URGH! please shut up would you? I need quiet! Nah, no one can stop her keep shouting here and there last night, I wonder the reason my neighbor move out from their house is because my house too noise? "Why you didn't clean up your toilet?" *high pitch* "Why you didn't sweep the floor?" *double high pitch* "AHHHH~ COCKROACH!" *glass break sound* But yeah, no one reply her question, we just continue our work. Luckily I still have some music to cover her-damage-9999-high-volume.

Oh well, I realize I had missed many great movies in this year, like harry potter, transformer 2, and I realize, I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE STEP INTO CINEMA IN 2009! Horrible Terrible Vegetable~ Oh well, after SPM I will watch them online. By the way, another great movie will come out soon, IMAGINE THAT Here's the film trailer

About a businessman and his daughter comedy. Well, I just saw it in today's newspaper and it sounds nice and worth to watch. So yeah, another movie, scream for the gorgeous vampire EDWARD CULLEN~ New Moon is coming up soon!

Argh~ can't believe that Jacob Black also gorgeous like what. AuWoo~ LOL~ Can't wait can't wait! Although I know that time I'll having SPM exam, but still! Who WANNA GO WATCH WITH ME? Sometime we just need a little break from books also :x Well, another movie, which is available start from today! Disney movie UP
Click here to watch
And G-force!
Click here to watch

I was born to tell you ilu

2009-08-25T00:29:00.004+08:00

Okay, shit, just blame me that I so kepo or whatever, I just wanna post it out.

I know sometimes parents are so unpredictable, I also hate them VERY much, both of my parents. But hey, I also love them, because they're my family, although they born me to this dammit world, although they treat me bad, but I know someday in the future, one day we're very tired to face this cruel reality, one day we been hurt by, one day we're sad, no matter where you are, the only place you wanting to go at that time is, going back home. Only the parent will give you support, give you comfort, no matter how bad you become, no matter how failure you become, no matter how tired you become, their hands will always open and welcome you to come back.

Actually how long you can hate them? 100 years? 1000 years? Nah, actually there's shouldn't be have this "HATE" feeling on this world, I mean there's no. We born for love, and end with love too, although the process is full of hate, is that sucks? yeah maybe, but still. Trust me, you'll realize it one day. How long you can hate them? maybe just 50 more years like that, and they won't exist anymore, so what for you hate them? You won't cry if you find out something bad happen to them? You sure? We are human, not a superhero, will dead in one day also. Well, sometimes we just need to learn how to forgive a person, which maybe hurt you so bad, to make life easier. Sometimes, you need to change the position of thinking, from different ways, to realize it with your heart. Or maybe someday, someday bad things happen on us, how long we can hate a person? Ask your heart, why you so hate him? Why you can't forgive him? Is he really that hateful? No one is perfect, neither our parents. Everyone got chance to do thing wrong, something maybe can make people hate it so much. But hey, you also done wrong before, but people forgive you. People, don't make life so complicated, don't complain life is so damn complicated, we, the human, are the one who make our life so complicated. Figure what I said if you donno. My english is broken enough :x Well, maybe you won't find out the point I try to give out. But bullshit, can you don't make it so complicated?

I believe what I believe
I love the one I wanting to love

mistake..

2009-08-24T21:32:00.006+08:00

NOTIFICATION : 24 August 2009, 9.00am to 5.00pm, Interruption of Electricity Supply.

WTF??! 8 hours no electric? Kill me please! I can't live without air-con, TV, and facebook! (addicted) This whole morning I'm just like a fish-out-of-water, SO DEAD, all I can do is read! Reread Twilight x3 and Edward Cullen is still gorgeous like what! But still, I FEEL SO DEAD! No people at home, and it's so hot at home without air-con! So I'm like a smelly, BBQ-ed, dead fish, laying on the cold floor and rolling here and there. Afternoon, I took my bag and run away to Pustaka (sleep) My paradise~

And at here, I need God to forgive me! (praying) Dear God, I know I'm very annoying, always asking you to do something strange for me, and you didn't do it at all LOL but I know that is for my own good, and I really appreciate what you have given. I know you love me, forever will do, until the death of mine, and you know I love you too, although I'm not a loyal prayer, although I like to crap a lot. Okay, now, my dearest God, I need your forgiveness, because today...because today.....because today........I escape my tuition class with Eunice! I really so sorry about this, and now I promise that I WON'T escape anymore! I meant it! Really! You got to believe me! I'm a good girl you know that! ~~just a bit lazy, lan ci only~~ Okay I know you're so annoyed, so amen..

Hell yeah I escaped with Eunice Uh, and her bear. We went to the shopping complex, Boulevard, slacking. AND Y'KNOW HUAT? I mean, WHAT. BLACKBERRY STORM IS JUST PLACED IN FRONT OF MY EYES! and it's so lenglui~ Price is RM2188 like that I forgot wtf, AND SOON IT'LL BECOME MY BABY ALSO! JUST WAIT! I KNOW YOU'RE CALLING FOR ME, BB. WAIT TILL MAMA COME AND GIVE YOU HOME! JUST WAIT BLACKBERRY STORM! OMG, you're so gorgeous! I mean, REALLY! Just like a storm in the dark, wtf :x Just wait and I'll bring you home and give you all my love <3>sexy wtf dress, and eyeliner, and a brand purse (i like to buy purse i realise O.O), and and and...bless me tio TOTO or 4D LMAO~

Okay, that's all for today, damn that blackout, make me feel like a caveman lol, and actually we forgot how beautiful the night sky is, without the light, the star bright like a diamond, like thousand of eyes blinking at you. Oh yeah, just now chatting with a my gan di, 12 year old. Actually don't feel like wanna chatting with him, ~~annoying~~ but suddenly he said that he (L) *msn emoticon* a girl, and now he got a girlfriend, but he don't have any feeling to that girlfriend. And I feel like wanna reply him, HAHAHA WTF, you these xiao di di so cute seh! I just ask him a question, so tell me what is love? and he replies i donno also, just a feeling lar~ me a bit *besong* like? example? he replied i donno lah, just a feeling lah, like you wanna go near her but scare of her and I just keep LOL to him. I wonder nowadays parents are such a failure, donno why I feel like wanna point middle finger to all, especially CHINESE parents, don't say that I'm rasict, I'm a Chinese too, and I really don't proud of that loh~ What a shame nowadays chinese people, thinking of how successful thay are, how respectful they are. Ha Ha Ha, don't make me keep LMFAO to you, those successful and respectful is already become a history I need to remind that. Don't agree with me? It's your business and I won't give a shit sorry. Let's just see, how we gonna be after 10 years, 20 years. And nowadays CHINESE parents, whoever is new parents or to-be-parents, could you please be a little bit responsibility to your little bastard and biatch, not all, but I scare ALL this word will be used in the future. Look at your children please, I mean listen to their conversation, M*C*B**, I F*** YOU, I **** YOUR MOTHER...etc etc, and attitude, ROLLED~ eyes, pointing middle finger (i also do that i know, but wtf? SHE ONLY 7/8 year old like that!) to stranger and know what her mom doing? continue her lunch and just let her child continue her _|_ AND IS A CHINESE WTF? What a shame to be a chinese nowadays. We always said Indian and Malay all are dogs, but I just wanna say, look at yourself before you judge them, maybe not you, but your children soon will be a Shaggy. Wake up chinese, don't throw the CHINESE face again. If you allow, let me smack your bitch and bastard. If you not allow, I just wanna ask you, can I smack you, loser chinese?

Okay, wtf to me, I'm tired. Byes..

2009-08-23T10:11:00.003+08:00

BLOGGER~ I won't leave you again! Sorry guys, keep wanting you relink me :x But yeah, relink me please, haha wtf~

2009-08-07T23:50:00.001+08:00

So here I go

2009-08-05T23:05:00.002+08:00

Well, tonight we're having dinner at Grand Palace, like super duper expensive one. Oh yeah I forgot to tell, MY ~~evil~~ CUTE SISTER IS BACK FROM TAIWAN! and also her boyfriend. What a cute and sweet couple <3 So because of that, I'm quite busy lately and tired also. Tell you a secret, *whisper* my sister is so ganas when she's sleeping. HAHA! Okay, tomorrow BO YI ( my sis's man) will go back Taiwan, so here's goes the dinner.

my apple juice

here's my sis and her bf, Bo Yi

SAD! I didn't order the dessert, look so yummy. T_T

and here's my beef.

And total of this dinner is RM400++ O.O The most expensive dinner I have eaten. So yeah, THANK YOU TO SIS and her BF. <3 you two. *sounds so realistic* HAHA!
Tomorrow I really don't feel like wanna go to school. It's damn BORED! OH YEAH! there's a japanese girl came to our school today and SHE IS CUTE! :O The boys so bastard :O called her bitch in japanese. Slap them please. Okay, it's really late now and really tired. So bye bye. :)

Random post

2009-08-01T23:01:00.008+08:00

Another boring day~ So I go search the things I want the most! >:O

1.

I know it's kind of weird I like the converse white shoes 'cause many people say it's look like school shoes. But what I to say is, don't wear it as a school shoes, wear it as a converse. And I have a little bit regret I bought a black one :/

2.

I prefer Blackberry than Iphone, 'cause a careless people like me better don't buy Iphone, who knows maybe one day I'll drop it or what, I'll kill myself that time. (what's the different between drop a Blackberry or drop an Iphone?)

3.

If can I want to have a macbook also, but don't have such $$ to buy that, and I really donno how to use macbook :x So, a normal human like me, just need to have a normal lappy like VAIO CS, damn like the champagne colour. x3

4.

Only the Mp4 I can affort :x Cheer for Ipod Touch! I want you i want you I WANT YOU!

Hmm..Let me think about what things I want to buy in my future life?Oh yeah!

5.

MINI COOPER CONVERTIBLE, in my dream I know that. -0-

2009-07-31T18:28:00.003+08:00

Yay! Finally I get the "River Flows in You" music sheet. Thanks Joan! Gonna memorise the whole melody into my brain!

Yiruma, you're my idol!

2009-07-30T21:24:00.002+08:00

It's another boring day, I wonder why my everyday is so boring. By the way, trial exam is coming soon, and I'm still like, slacking around. But now I realise, there's only left 106 days to study *shock* and yeah, lazy girl gone good, she's starting study now. Anyway, who know what's the name for this pastry? Well, there's nothing big deal, I'm just in love with it. So does my Fishy. :x

Unfortunately, I ate its new friend :x and now it don't want to play with me. =_=" LOL.

You're one in a million

2009-07-29T21:27:00.004+08:00

Tom and Jerry Show in real life. Quite interesting when the show began ~~('cause I'm like a SBL, never ever see a cat catch a mouse before :x)~~ So, it's a fresh thing for me. By the way, there're some differents:
1.Have 2 Tom.
2.Jerry is stupid but Tom is clever in real life.
3.The pull dog and its son didn't appear.

The cat is SO~ cute neh when it "play" with the mouse, but screw it, after finishing the mouse, Tom just leave Jerry at there like that, and behind my house become VERY smelly now. The dead body is so EW!

Anyway, we're designing our class T-shirt,(the front design only, the back haven't done yet, so does the whole shirt) Thanks to NATALIE this BEAUTIFUL AND POWERFUL DESIGNER! ~~my 4th wife~~ Here the logo we planning to put in front.

静茹の情歌

2009-07-25T12:02:00.004+08:00

I'm in love with all the songs sing by Fish Leong. 于是，在这样一个孤独而残酷的世界里，治愈伤痛的不是时间，而是在于爱。

如果能在一起 - 梁静茹
如果我們能在一起你的天使會比以前愛美麗
會更美麗就像函館的夜景
如果我們能在一起唱一首歌會比以前有感情
心有靈犀就連太平洋也靜靜在聆聽

Fly Away - 梁静茹
fly away 無窮無儘是你深邃的眼睛
看著你就可以讓我茫茫人海裡感到安定
fly away 當我不顧一切無止盡追尋
有一個人有一顆心早已經默默之中在那裡

别再为他流泪 - 梁静茹
你走了太久一定很累他錯了不該你來面對
離開他就好就算了心情很乾脆
他其實沒有那麼絕對遠一點你就看出真偽
離開他不等於你的世界會崩潰
轉個彎你還能飛

情歌 - 梁静茹
你寫給我我的第一首歌
你和我十指緊扣默寫前奏
可是那然後呢
還好我有我這一首情歌
輕輕的輕輕哼著哭著笑著
我的天長地久

没有如果 - 梁静茹
有人說
世界上最遙遠的距離不是生與死
而是我就站在你面前
你卻不知道我愛你

用力抱着 - 梁静茹
心裡的忐忑
抱著慢慢就會好的
感動都有了還有什麼不認可
不准我們把愛給走成了坎坷

天灯 - 梁静茹
暗戀的明燈一路上如煙火隨身
寧願那想像的情人永遠保溫
美夢別成真讓我夢到忘記疑問
寂寞就想想那盞天燈那指紋

爱情之所以为爱情 - 梁静茹
我看見愛情之所以為愛情誰都在揮霍
我想的天長地久也許只是時間的荒謬
我沈迷的感動與你不同
我的了解讓我自由

你只想要听一首歌，现在全世界的人都知道我爱你。:)

2009-07-24T14:42:00.003+08:00

Lmao, trial is coming very soon!! SPM = PMS feel like shit :x Finally I have little bit nervous about SPM and starting to take my book and study. I guess I have to shorten my sleeping time, from everyday 8 hours to 5 hours everyday O.O which mean I have to go in my bed at 12am and wake up at 5am, start from now. It will be fine, I guess, if really can't stand it, just sleep at class what, F3.
Another Lmao, many of my friends got their driving license, except me. I also want to drive! No need to wait for my mom again if I can drive. T_T But she has many excuses to stop me getting my license, fork her. And evil she always complain to her friends that everyday has to pick me up from school, tuition etc. I'm like, wtf, you're the one who stop me go get the license, point finger behind her. And my dad is like: after SPM lah, or no need get also can, ask your mom fetch you everytime. His mother, another finger to him also. KNLH..No wonder they can be with each other, same species. ~~bitch~~

Now I'm waiting for Christmas, my favor event. Still have 154 days to Christmas and 161 more days to my 18th Birthday! LOL, and I planning to go clubbing at my birthday night. 10th of January, I will be where? here? or somewhere else. Will I be fine? Will I be all right? Will he be okay? Will he be happy? *slap* hehe, out of topic, I had promised myself, right nicole? You'll be fine. =) Believe yourself. Just like what xin said, believe yourself. =3

Hate school.
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Izit broken-heart season? Why I saw many hearts tearing silently..?

it's all about love

2009-07-21T19:07:00.005+08:00

我的快樂會回來的
只要清楚曾愛的那麼深刻不准問值不值得
我的快樂會回來的
離開不是誰給了誰的選擇
by 錦繡二重唱 - 我的快乐 -

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
by Taylor Swift - Teardrops on my guitar

Everything I ever did
Heaven knows I'm sorry but
I was too young to see
You were always there for me
And my curiosity got the better half of me
Baby take it easy on me
by Utada Hikaru - Come back to me

And someday, I promise I'll be gone
And someday, I might even sing this song
To you, I might even sing this song, to you
and I was crying alone tonight
and I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you
So just come back we'll make it better
So Just come back I'll make it
better than it ever was
by Secondhand Serenade - Maybe

我想知道她哪裡比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什麼不同
我知道我比她付出的還多
可是我總換不了你的心動
by 郭静 - 知道

I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all
by Mariah Carey & Westlife - Against All Odds

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
by Nickelback - Far Away

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
by Avril Lavigne - When You Gone

i'm walking in my memories with you
the tears fill even the deepest area of my heart
what should i do?
even in my dreams, i miss you
by Kim Yoo Kyung - Starlight Tears

請別說愛我　推我向晴天
最溫暖的天空　卻換了季節
在絕望的面前　灑落一地心碎
就算是傷悲　我不想太狼狽
by F.I.R. - 眷恋

Have you ever been so lost
Known the way and still so lost
Another night waiting for someone to take me home
Have you ever been so lost
by Katy Perry - Lost

全世界都停了电全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面被贴上黑夜
我呐喊思念却没人听见
绝望到极点剩的是疲倦
by Tank - 全世界都停电

Well can we go back to where we were before
You dropped your heart on my floor
'Cause it was easiest to hide it all away
And never say what we were thinking
No you'd never catch me blinking that night
'Cause I was all of yours
by Making April - All Of Yours

我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我忍着痛也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦
by S.H.E - 612星球

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心
by Tank - 如果我变成回忆

Don't mind me, I'm just bored.

2009-07-20T16:57:00.008+08:00

Banquet Night, The Most Beautiful Night Ever.

Wanna see how do I look like after 10 years?

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The most lady-like and beautiful night, although the heels REALLY kill me and it cost me RM50 to set my hair and the makeup T_T It's woth anyway. Well, the picture was shot after dinner, let's reverse to 8 hours before:

At Jaws salon:
(Xin is a cool driver x3)

Okay done my makeup, next is my hair. LETS CURLY IT! x3 Result is the first picture up there. LMAO! AHAHAHA

At Eunice's

And xin was trying to fill up the bra. Who's bra? Don't ask me :x

And LMAO, I got bring my camera, but hoh, I left my battery at eunice's house. LMAO!But it's really a beautiful night, never ever see myself like that before. So does xin and eunice. Xin's like an angel, wearing white dress and heels, Eunice became a sexy babe. Woosh! But unfortunately Nalie can't come with us. T_T

In the fantasy night, pricess nicole didn't meet her prince. Oh well, LMAO!

Haha, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOAN JOJO! x3

The last letter for him

2009-07-18T01:40:00.011+08:00

To a special him:

Whole thing will just like, turning black and white colour, or maybe just blank, when everytime I see you. No manner at where, maybe just a few of your pictures, or maybe just accidently see you on the street. Everytime I just feel like running away like a coward or pretend didn't see you at all. Yeah I admit that I'm afraid of..I'm afraid of..you? I'm afraid of coldness coming out from your eyes. Yeah I'm afraid of that, seriously. 'cause you're different than other, I have different feeling on you, comparing to others. The feeling which can make me smile whole day, like a bird flying around, and also can make me down, just like falling into a deep, big hole.

You're so special to me and I really really donno why. I just, so damn care about you and it's like killing me, everytime when I saw you with other girls walking on the street, although I know that they're just your friends. But still. I always laugh at myself, "What can you do if you find out he and his beloved walking on the street, hand with hand?" Yeah, I can't do anything, I'm just a little passer, or maybe just can say a, hi, to you and wish you happy with her, and then walk pass you with face full of tears, and still hoping you will turn back to see me. It's funny, and it's breaking my heart too.

I have many many things haven't tell you and I don't want you to miss it, but maybe I won't able to see you anymore. So this special post is special for you, write about all the things that I don't want you to miss. Maybe you'll never find this post, or maybe you'll accidently click in my blog and see this. But I don't mind anymore if you'll see or not, I just wanna show out the feeling I have on you and full stop it at the end. So here we go.

Form 1, 2005, the year I knew you and so damn hate you at that time. I'm still a little girl at that time and still love to bullshit-ing. The first day I become a secondary student, step into the classroom and just saw you smiling at me. Yeah, another everyone-I-only-see-you-scene. It's kind of weird. You help me a lot and I still have a bit bu shuan you. LOL, so kiddy right. But one day you came near me with the smile I love the most and said, you have some different feeling about me. Like a stone, I just reply you a "huh?" and saw you just smile and walked away...and since that, I started to run away from you, as far as I can...

Form 2, Form 3 and then high school. I did know that since that day, I also have the same different feeling as you. But you're gone. We're from different school, and different life, just like 2 aeroplane never will meet each other at the sky or else it's become a mischance. I'll always compare other boy with you, especially the smile.

Well, actually I found a boy which has the similiar smile like you and has a little crush on him. He's nice, sweet, and I like to see him smile. And yeah, he's also is a Pieces boy, same as you. After knowing him, my life really feel more brighter than before, thank to him, and Elmira. Thanks to this two special people, make me brave and support me all the time.

During high school, I saw you, and your smile, the smile I miss a lot these years. And yeah, xin had seen me giggling like an idiot whole afternoon during tuition time. I can't stop smiling and thinking of you. Yeah, you know awful is that when I'm staying inside my imagination world. You will see me laugh like an idiot, and blushing for nothing. If getting more seriously, I may rolling myself on the floor and keep giving off some strange sound. See, you the only one who can make me gone madness like this. My heart was fully filled by you. What an idiot.

Since the last time we met, every Saturday and Sunday, you'll appear from an unknown place, just like a you had done a magic trick, a "boom!" sound then you'll appear in front of me. And me..started to skip the tuition, running away again. I have told myself thousand times, you're not coming for me. And I have a fight, yeah BIG fight with my parent, and started using alcohol to hocus myself. I drunk I cried, alone in my room, just one night of November. It's the most depress night in my life. I'm sat on my bathroom floor, roll up and just let the tears dropping itself. It's also the coldest night ever. Since the fight with my family, until now I seldom talk to them. They think they know me, especially my mom, after been scolded by my father, she just realise her temper on me, of course I'll fuck back her. Ignore the F word LOL.

Tell you, I have 4 "wifes" besides me, haha. Elmira, eexin, eunice, and natalie. Thank god I have them. But will you be mine also..? Nah, I shoudn't ask this question 'cause you already have another her. And this news make me sleepless for two nights and cried for two days. Finally the day has came, just like, the chinese song 全世界都停电 by Tank. Tasting of broken heart.

全世界都停了电全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面被贴上黑夜
我呐喊思念却没人听见
绝望到极点剩的是疲倦

全世界都停了电全世界白雪满天
才发觉在我心间有回忆碎片
一作梦翻身就刺痛流血
我卷着身体缩成一个圈
像一个句点

Tired and tear are left after we love. and I'm happy for you too. Really :)

Many people asked me, if I so damnit in love with you, why don't I just tell you my feeling. If I could, I would. But problem is, I don't have any confidence. I have serious inferiority, just look at me, just a word to describe me, UGLY! and I had been hurt by many people, although I know it's just a joke. But, what can I do? I can just fake a smile. But to say that I love you, I think it will be a shame to you.

Like a star, it's just better to see than own it. Just like you. It will be better for me if I can just put you in my heart, secretly. People said, another way to cherish a person is, just don't own it. So that it will never lost and stand last forever. And I'm using this way to love you. No to own you, but set you free. How long can my forever last? After I die, that will be the end of my forever. That's the forever I can give you.

These's all I want to tell you about. So, at the end, lets put the FULL STOP here, and bury these memories, and you into my deep heart. I still love you, no manner what I will still loving you. But no that strong again, and soon the love will turn into loved. You'll just become a memories, a part of my favor memories. So, the last letter for you, my beloved sim poh lim.

I love you x100
until die still loving you. Always loving you. Forever will be loving you.
I loved you, spl..

R.I.P nicole's 4-year-love.

2009-07-17T14:27:00.006+08:00

My computer seem like gonna dying soon, damn lagging lately, or maybe is because I open Restaurant City in facebook? :/ But oh well, I LOVE my restaurant and getting addicted to it x3

and also the korean drama, BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS! <3 *dancing*

Ohmigosh..

*after 5 hours*
His mother! Blackout for 5 hours +! REally is so His Mother! Now is 8.21pm NIGHT! It's so WTF.
LOL, while typing the word OHMIGOSH! the screen turned black in the sudden and "SHIT!" coming out from my mouth automatically. At first I thought it's just a little blackout but NO! This whole afternoon I'm like, DYING! No air-con, no internet, no computer, no telly, no fan, no fun and NO ELECTRIC! and I keep telling myself the power will be back soon, very very soon. Whole afternoon rolling on my sofa and damn bored! and damn HOT! I took a book and read it, and still comforting myself the power will be back in anytime, be patient be patient. After hours and hours, "WTF! ASDFGHJKL!" it's 6pm and still out of power! Pissed off! and having candle dinner with my parent. -0- What a wtf day is today.

My 17 memories

2009-07-16T14:32:00.002+08:00

Our 5L4 class picture and ours signature. <3

and YAY! I finally found a nice blogskin and my chatbox is back! and hoh!! click on my ads and feed me! I feel damn hungry lately, I mean, SERIOUSLY! It's like, wanting to eat up 10 pack of happy meal everyday! and y'know what, I have gained some weight! and almost can't fit in my jeans and can see my fatty tummy under my T-shirt. OMFG, What have I done to myself! I'm turning myself into a fatty! Maybe is because I play too much of Restaurant City in facebook and its dish make me feel so hungry. ROFL~ *self-comforting* Nah, just kidding, it's because I need to make sure that SCOTT won't catch up my level!! He's like, one day one level in RC! GO DIE! F3 But he's nice by the way 'cause traded me many ingredient. Need to say THANK YOU!! to him, haha.

Back to school, Mz Robinett, ~~chung hua's ex principal~~ our new principal..Oh well, we just have many xxxx word toward her changing-st.co-into-chunghua action. But I can't really spit out loud about OUR principal at my blog again, 'cause you know I know lah. If you don't know, that's your buisness. :x Just use your toes to think, LOL. Oh well, KHLH and fxxx her bastard cat :x What's KHLH (actually is KNLH)? Don't ask me, you should ask our adorable xin-chiang. She taught me one :x

Okay, this's all for today. Donno what to write again. So cya!

2009-07-13T21:23:00.002+08:00

現在幾點 : 9:23pm

你現在正在聽的歌 : Starlight Tears - Kim Yoo-kyung (Boys Before Flowers OST)

你最後吃的一樣東西是什麼 : Cha Siew Bao

現在天氣如何 : si beh HOT!

上一次生日蛋糕上蠟燭的數目 : 1

最后一次吹熄蠟燭的日期：my 17th birthday

你家養過什麼：dog, fish, hamster x3

兄弟姊妹跟他們的年紀 : my big sis (27 :x), my big fat bro (25), n my 2nd Bro (23)

有刺青嗎 : maybe in future :3

喜歡你目前的生活嗎 : not really

出生地 : miri hospital

住地 : somewhere in miri

覺得自己花心嗎 : nope

暗戀過人嗎 : always :x

跟人告白嗎 : me bakjo :/

喜歡吃啥 : you

喜欢的顏色 : black, white, dark purple

喜歡的數字：7

喜歡看哪一種的電影 : anything

喜歡的flower : dandelion (grass)

喜歡的運動 : sleeping

喜欢的冰淇淋種纇 : vanilla + chocolate x3

特別喜好最懷念的日子 : Form 3?

最开心的事：with my friends

最幸福的事：doing crazy thing with my friends

最傷心的事：when i left behind

最生气的事：fight with my parent -3-

最怕遇到的人 : SPL :x

最怕什麼東西 : spider! EW!

世上最惱人的事 : love, don you think so?

全世界最好的事 : got meh? F3

現在心裡最想念的人是谁 : my $$

最想说的话：try to live a better life

如果有來世，你最想當 : millionaire

討厭別人做什麼：i donno leh ._.

擅長的事 : sleeping in class

上次上醫院是什麼時候 : CNY 2009, go die...

以後想做什麼職業：advertising designer

你覺得自己十年後會在哪裡 : KL? Taiwan? or SG

無聊的時候你大多做些什麼 : maple :x

如果有人誤會你，你会：i will like "ta ma de..F3"

如果有人誤會你，又不聽你的解釋 : G&D

有想過要怎麼對付你討厭的人嗎：Fart in her face

有想过自殺嗎：almost everyday. -0-

你認為你的另一半幫你付錢是理所當然的嗎：donno leh, see first

要幾歲結婚： 25?

依你心裡覺得重要度先後排列 : money, love (don blame me :x), work, friend, family

今天心情好嗎：headache leh

希望誰回信： i don get it O.o

现在幾點了：10.07pm

2009-07-12T21:35:00.002+08:00

the white starlight envelops the tears
the tears fall in the warm wind
do you feel it?
this trembling, quiet whisper that is going your way

i draw you on this white paper
the warm smile holds me
is this love?
even when i close my eyes, i see only you

i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i don't want to see the tears of pain anymore
you let me know
this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go
because that love is you

i'm walking in my memories with you
the tears fill even the deepest area of my heart
what should i do?
even in my dreams, i miss you

i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i don't want to see the tears of pain anymore
you let me know
this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go
because that love is you

please look at me, like the faraway stars
can't you be the one that's in my heart

i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i don't want to see the tears of pain anymore
you let me know
this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go
because that love is you

I feel so sick, 'cause damnit I still care about him.

2009-07-11T11:35:00.000+08:00

Don't feel like blogging, sienz.

2009-07-06T14:40:00.002+08:00

Mother fcker TMxxx, malaysia network really SUCK! I have lost my connection of internet like, N times a day and it's really pissed me off. I can't sign in my msn, my facebook, my maplestory, and any website! Fcker CB better go eat shit and go die, no use one and better use pig head to throw them. Stupid and lazy like a pig, no, even a pig is smarter than those mother fcker, stupid bastard ass hole.

Phew, cool down cool down. ~~Bastard mother fcker useless pig~~ GAH! LOST CONNECTION AGAIN! MJB! What a shit network connection and those lazy mother fcker still haven't take any action to fix the connection problem. How many times I need to phone them again. "Sorry for the problem we can fix it as fast as posible." Talk shit! Already 3 days and still lost connection like hell. You call this as fast as posible? I so curious about how FAST they're meant to fix it? Can as fast as they shake their ass? Rar! Fuck it! Screw you TMxxx!

And the school's Hari Pelanggan 2. Screw Robinett also. _|_

2009-07-04T22:12:00.001+08:00

Just came back home and damn tired, and I'm so sad..

2009-07-03T12:48:00.003+08:00

Oh Mi Gosh! It's JUNE already, that's mean I only have 4 months left! 4 MONTHS! That's short! Argh~ Go die! Why the time is going so damn fast huh?! and I'm still in last Christmas mood. -0-

Oh well, back to today's topic, my fish is ~~gonna die soon~~ sick! T_T My fish fish, I'm gonna take many many pictures of you before you leave me. T_T

I think he's in bad mood 'cause he keep ignoring me. or maybe he's shy LOL! But he became so moody lately, since from last week I cleaned the fish tank and yesterday he stop eating food. T_T What's wrong with you huh?~ and I realise that his "tummy" become so big O.O No because he's pregnant, HE IS A MALE, don't be so stupid like my mom. ROFL I still can remember what she said,

Me: What's wrong with the fish huh?
Dad: Got something wrong meh?
Me: Yeah, he starting ignore me and stop eating his "food".
Dad: *come near and staring at the fish beside me*
Me: and hoh! since when his tummy become SO~ big!?
DaD: *take his presbyopic glasses and wear* Yahoh! Why leh?
Me: Izit because we feed him so many times a day?
when me and my dad studing the fish, my mom suddenly spit out a word.
Mom: maybe he's pregnant..
At that same time we burst out laugh, like hell. Left my mom blurring there.
Me: It's a MALE.
Dad: Ever heard before a male get pregnant? *roll his eyes*
and I was shock! First time saw my dad ROLLED~ his eyes. ROFL~ and I don't even know how to ROLL~ my eyes. LOL!
I feed my fish 3 times a day and each time I give him 3 or 4 his "favorite food". Now I think it's too much, for a fish. -0- and maybe he wanna keep fit...

2009-06-30T19:52:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHA!! OMG, I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING NOW. HAHAHA! ZOMFG! PHEW~! HAHAHA!

2009-06-28T21:52:00.003+08:00

Suddenly feel so empty..Tomorrow school, I better go get some sleep, my eyes damn hurt. Yeah, he found his love, I lose my love, this fair enough I 'cause finally I have get my heart back from him. I won't let anyone own it, never again, and I think I don't have much brave left, to touch a thing called love. 4 years, quite long enough *sneer* Luckily, it ends here. Tomorrow have school, I better go get some sleep...

2009-06-27T12:11:00.003+08:00

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see

I keep listening to this song, Taylor Swift has sung this song deep into my heart, yeah finally I found it back, my broken heart. I'll heal it myself don't worry, and I'll be fine don't worry, I'll find my smile back don't worry, my happy will come back don't worry, yeah don't worry, I'll be fine.. I'll delete him from my facebook, from my brain, from my memories, from my life, and from my heart..I won't see him again, I won't miss him again, I won't love him again. He's not mine, never will be. I should take back my heart from him, time to wake up and leave. I lost my sunshine and maybe my world will become a little bit dark again, but don't worry I have candle this time. I'll light up my world myself, without his sunshine. I'll be fine..just give me some time..

2009-06-27T01:04:00.005+08:00

Now I know how's the broken heart feel like, it won't break into pieces, but disappear. You can't feel your heart beating anymore, it's so quiet, the whole world suddenly become so quiet, just like you're the one in this damn world, so lonely, so helpless. All you can do is cry, cry for nothing. I'm a fool I know, but I just can't stop fooling myself, it has become a habit I think. Wake up, you should wake up now, damnit! Everything is okay, you'll be okay. Let it go and wake up, nicole..

2009-06-25T14:05:00.003+08:00

OMG!! Go watch this! It's so damn FUNNY! Watch it! xD

2009-06-24T13:32:00.008+08:00

Title: When the hottest meet the cutest...

The hottest (Ah Tong)

the cutest (Alex) What a sweet smile. ROFL~

Ah Tong: Hey babe~
Alex: shoo~

Ah Tong: I'm a MAN~!
Alex: Oh~ I love you~

Alex: Aw, I like that.

=_=" Stop liao Stop liao..Well, the funniest and craziest mufti day. Yeah, It's St.CO's MUFTI DAY! and this's my last mufti day. T_T Oh well. Keep scrolling down. =D

Look carefully, they're wearing bra!

OMG, SLIM THAN GIRL! PUNCH HIM!!

Buzy helping them dress up, and Finally~

Super model alex!

and chinese ~~gigolo~~ err, I mean pretty chinese girl. HAHAHAHA!

Your boxer, Ah Tong!

*Whistling* The highlight in Form 5, superstar! Okay, time to makeup.

Alex: What's that?!

Seem that Ah Tong has found ~~his~~ her prince, ADAM!

OH my gosh~ 起毛ing

More pictures coming soon!

2009-06-23T20:23:00.002+08:00

On this fucking world I super duper hate two kinds of boy, one is opinionated guy and other one is playboy. Unfortunately, there's some guys have both of them. I didn't point my finger to anyone, don't misunderstanding.
On this suck world I super duper sympathize on two kinds of girl, one is innocent girl and one is stupid girl. And unfortunately, many girls have both of them. I'm the one I admit it. But I'm not talking about myself. LOL
It's nothing at all, I just feel like crying, when I saw a beautiful,innocent but stupid blogger's blog. No no, I can't call her a stupid, is the guy too bastard. Have you ever heard before?

女孩本来不相信承诺, 是男孩令她相信的;女孩相信了, 男孩却毁诺.

Well, I just hate that kind of boy. A word for that girl:
你爱一个人, 他不爱你, 不代表你不可爱, 不代表你不好, 只能代表他不爱你而已.
Cheer up, he doesn't worth your tears.

2009-06-19T15:15:00.007+08:00

St.Co's food-fun-fair! Well, this is the biggest event I have joined since I came to this school, so thanks to Robinett? Nah. Of course I'm so kind, go and help people guarding their vendor's stands. ~~or you can call this as KEIPO~~ ^^

Wahsei~ So many head(s) 1st time saw so many people appear in school. Can you spot someone in the picture? (Sorry can't enlarge it) I think I had took a hantu into the my picture. @_@!

What's name of this dance I forget, but I can say that, It's nice~

Aww~ the cutest part is that little boy. I super heart this part! By the way, another ghost in the picture again. =_=

Wahsei~ 1st time!

Burger King~ Burger King!

Game zone 1: catch the fish by using the kitchen tissue. Super hard okay! @.@ But I still can catch the fish. Pro leh~ HAHA

Game zone 2: I didn't play this actually, I just saw that people using the basketball and throw it into the hole.

say YO! to our I-kill-you-oh!-teacher. xD

My favor stand. Face art!

Cha cha cha cha! (laughing sound)

"Hello, mom?.. WHAT?"......."I GTG!!" *F5 face* Bye, xin. T_T

This's orang gila, means siao/crazy/freak/joker.

-0- my LOVE is the best one. LOL

Hello! say CHEESE!

Buzy....

Buzy....:D

Buzy....

Buzy....and I'm slacking.

Unfortunately, my coupon has used up. T_T FOOD!~~

2009-06-16T18:11:00.003+08:00

What would you do if you saw your mom check your drawer or your bag?

I didn't spit it out doesn't mean that I don't know anything, I won't mind, I won't angry etc etc. So just tell me what the fcuk do you want to search from my drawer and bag? Cigarette? Sorry I don't have that, but I can get it if you hope to find one or more in my drawer. If not, stay away from my room. Just don't use "Why your room is so messy" as your excuse and go in my room, I can clean it myself. And doesn't meant that you're my mom so you can check my privacy without my permission. It's so lame, mom, please stop doing that again, don't make me hate you deeply.

Back to school life again, and I'm so tired. Last exam results are all sucks. I finally know that, not every exertion can be rewarded, but I still keep trying, even though I feel like crying when saw my exertion became a trash. Can't give up now, there's not much time left, 5 months left to SPM. And I so damn hate it when so many uncles and aunties ask : "What do you want to do/study after high school?" and every time my parent will reply them, " She BETTER to study what what blah blah blah" I'm like, Sorry? They're asking me now, not you. And sometimes some people will just blame them, "I'm asking your daughter, not you." HAH HAH! IN YOUR FACE. True, you're not me and my life is mine, not yours, so stop helping me to make any decision. I'm seventeen, not seven! *sigh* And I decide that, no crazy mapling again before SPM. So, just can play twice in a week and I'm gonna miss my character so much. T_T

I Love You <3

2009-06-14T20:57:00.003+08:00

Don't say that I no life, just look at them. Knight of Cygnus just released lately and maybe just 5 or 4 day ago, but now many people reach level 120 already. Oh well, I redo my new character, 'cause added wrong skill. -0- Yeah, already reach level 38, and eexin told me at tuition today: "HAHA!! YOU ADD WRONG SKILL LE LAH!!" I'm like, SHOCK! OMFG! and that's a important skill for mage. OMFG! But it's too late. Oh well, I will train it again. Of course, i use the same name again, xdeathgulx, haha slap me.
Oh well, tomorrow have school, so i should go pack my bag now and sleep early. Hope that I can wake up tomorrow morning :x buaibye!

I Love You <3

2009-06-13T00:23:00.002+08:00

RaR rAr RAR raR Rar rAR RAr~ LOL, slap me please! I LOVE my new character~ Haha, yeah I made another char again, is a new job, Flame Wizard. x3 At first I thought I will just play her until level 30 and become my storage again, so I named her randomly, wtf it's xdeathgulx, and now I'm SOOOO regret to give such a lame name. RaR~ and I totally in love with the new skill of flame wizard, maybe I played too many assassin. And hoh! I wanna random her hair, her eyes, her hair colour, all into red colour! LOL, just random. Bless me her, can get a nice, new hair style and look. x3 x3 x3

ps: remind me my mom still owe me 50. x3

2009-06-10T21:21:00.002+08:00

累了照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中不听话的就停止了

听着呼吸像浪潮拍动着
越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏都难掌握

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心

如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你我不怪你

快乐什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的最舍不得

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心

如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你

如果我变成回忆最怕我太不争气
顽固地赖在空气霸占你心里每一寸缝隙
连累依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平请你尽力把我忘记

2009-06-10T19:32:00.005+08:00

I'm back~ Just now went out with my breast friends, haha, yeah BREAST FRIENDS xD. Me, eunice, eexin, nalie and her keen. Well, quite fun today, you guys really make my day, TQ Loves you guys! xD Okay, pictures time.

PS: nalie and keen are so cute~ xD

They're paiseh-ing

4 of bitches. xD

Nalie~ too dark -0-

Uhnisnis~ choosing clothes for her Mr.Bear. So sweet~

:x shoting in fitting room again. Hahaha

Guess what, I bought a super cute glove to myself.

For what? For this~

awwww~ super damn kewl right? Eunice have a same glove also, we share. and I'm thinking of this, just dream lah haha. If i have any darling, i will buy a pair of cute gloves like this, one for him and one for me. >< hahaha, who wanna be my darling?? Just go die bah. ROFL~ Okay gonna have dinner now, ciao!

2009-06-09T22:43:00.003+08:00

Feel so down today, I wish I can cry out loud, but I don't want to! stop crying stupid. I lost of control I guess. I'm in pain, never ever feel so damn hurt before. I wish I could just jump down from the building and die, and urgh! stop that stupid feeling again. Why can't it stopped!? Excuse me awhile..

快乐和幸福那么相似,可是快乐就是幸福吗? Maybe all you need is me, staying away from you, and your life. For me, you're so untouched.. you're too far and I not able to catch up, I just can standing here, and watch you leave. Can imagine that? I live with this kind of feeling for 4 years, and it's killing me. I ate a box of chocolate, to cover that bloody taste in my heart, but it's still bleeding. 可是, 我能怎样? you're not mine..and never will be..