everyday I love you..

Greeting, it has been ages i didn't update my blog, well sorry. addicted to maple, like AGAIN~? Well, haha okay i admit that, I no life T_T lols~ What? I just want do something I like before I leave, and maple is one of them hahas :P Well, maybe not, me planning to say bye bye to maple forever, after i reach 4th job lmao, and please stop me to buy @cash D: it such a waste for spending money in game things. But last time bah haha. Okay, no @cash but w705!!! Woot last time I saw a pink colour w705 at parkson, RM815, so chio wtf T_T I wish i can book that phone down first D: Man, I need job. *finding wtf* and I need dress + heels + colour contact lens + my mini laptop bag. I'm so lack of $$$$$$$$ darn! Oh well. Tomorrow gonna shop for camp things with my gang, my purse is like only left 100++ and my evil big sister keep asking me if i got go taiwan or not. I want to but, my w705 baby D: I need to get it before march. and please remind me to apply taylor wtf I keep forget this important thingy! ARGH! too much maple ._. Wish me that I really can get in taylor for further study.

2:36am: I still can't sleep. For some weird reasons and my messy mind. I just can't stop them. I keep repeating this song, using earphone, blocking the other but just boyzone's sexy voice. Well, it's my brother wedding theme song. and I love it. Talk about wedding, oh shit ._. I gained weight and need to lost it in 2 week time! possible or not ._. Last time try some pretty dress but end up with disappointment. I nearly burst the dresses FML. not the top but bottom. T_T I have big fat ass like my brother has + elephant legs D: OMFG! I need to keep fit man wtf!

It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you

2.44am: I still awake. Thinking of something I shouldn't to think. But I can't stop think of it. Still the same song in my ear and mind. and I feel hungry now. But my milk was finished by roman. He likes milk like I do <3 *missing part, i forgot what i write, sorry*

everyday i love you

3.01am: Wondering what's roman doing now, sleeping or missing me too haha. I'm hungry but don't really want to eat something. I feel empty, the same melody, suddenly makes me wanna cry. I'm thinking of him again. There's so many him appear lately and I'm gonna wash them off out of my mind. I don't believe in love honestly. I only trust my own feeling. I just know that I love, but donno that if I loved. No heartache but hungry, VERY.

And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul

3.12am: Loved. It's doesn't matter to me now. Christmas is coming soon, and I really hope that this time I won't spend it alone myself. I miss singapore christmas night. So pretty and awesome..I really wish that I won't be left. I pretty hate that kind of feeling. And I won't left roman too. Cute roman, thanks for loving me this kind of master. <3

3.32am: press wrong something and messy up the post. shit, fuck that acer, anyhow I'm feeling okay now. Butterflies have been killed, after thinking of roman. I should get some sleep now. Nights earthling, nights roman. Nights nicole <3

And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you