becauseilu - rock paper scissors season

Feel so down today, I wish I can cry out loud, but I don't want to! stop crying stupid. I lost of control I guess. I'm in pain, never ever feel so damn hurt before. I wish I could just jump down from the building and die, and urgh! stop that stupid feeling again. Why can't it stopped!? Excuse me awhile..

快乐和幸福那么相似,可是快乐就是幸福吗? Maybe all you need is me, staying away from you, and your life. For me, you're so untouched.. you're too far and I not able to catch up, I just can standing here, and watch you leave. Can imagine that? I live with this kind of feeling for 4 years, and it's killing me. I ate a box of chocolate, to cover that bloody taste in my heart, but it's still bleeding. 可是, 我能怎样? you're not mine..and never will be..